exasperation and sincerity

it has come to this.

i have fought technology for so long but there is something so satisfying about looking at my friends' thoughts on a big screen when im too spaced out to read a book. when i miss some faces. terribly. when a phone call seems too hard. i have run out of steam. im submitting. maybe these words will reach someone i love. maybe you all will feel my pounding heart. close your eyes. breathe in. breathe out. breathe in. breathe out. this is the beginning of my "blog". perhaps the end as well. we shall see.