elder water dragon just days away...

so much has happened. in my heart, soul, and mind since i last "blogged". beyond the walls of this flesh is the air i breathe. the trees. the ocean. the dirt. everything. there is so much. vastness. i am married now. to the most amazing person i have ever met. every moment we share is pure energy. true living. this is a photograph from a trip we took to the high desert of southern california after our wedding in august. i am grateful everyday to have this life.

new paths unveiled.

clarity.

i realized today that you may possibly
love me as much as i know that i love you.
i have never felt so free in my life.

some things on my mind.

Watching the sunset while crossing the carquinez strait by train.
Two days in a row.
Cometbus 53. doris 27.
Matching natural haircolors with my sister.
Botanical nomenclature/latin word roots.
What will orion rocket look like?
This tiny patch of sunburn on my boyfriends face.
Time and space.
Making do with time and space.
Balance, if you will.
Herbal dentistry.
Adventures we will have in the sunshine.
How happy i am to be alive.

valley to sea.

falling in love is nourishing. never forget it.
the first time you visit the hometown of the person you love.
the first time you bring them "home". take 'em where mistakes were made.
show off the ducks and the cemetary. the rose planted for grandma in the moon garden. the smell of a shifting season.
walk down a beach they walked hundreds of times. with tiny feet. with changing steps. with other loves. high on youth or low on truth. shadows of memories on the sea breeze.
see the roots of their unique magic.
allow them a peek at yours.
walls are down when you take somebody to make out behind your jr high school.
let them breathe the air you breathed for all those years before the world expanded. eat at the places they like to eat with mom and dad.
look into this other persons face as they watch the sun set on the horizon of the place where they were born.
soak in the warmth of knowing another soul.

time comes between my actions and my intentions.

i am buried knee-deep in love letters i want to write. the phrases and sentiment all swirl in my head. my hands too busy, errands call. work. studying. plans. external reality. i will make time next week. your cup will over flow.

exasperation and sincerity

it has come to this.

i have fought technology for so long but there is something so satisfying about looking at my friends' thoughts on a big screen when im too spaced out to read a book. when i miss some faces. terribly. when a phone call seems too hard. i have run out of steam. im submitting. maybe these words will reach someone i love. maybe you all will feel my pounding heart. close your eyes. breathe in. breathe out. breathe in. breathe out. this is the beginning of my "blog". perhaps the end as well. we shall see.